Indeed, as far as the blog goes, I find it well received by its
intended audience of not any at all. While I perceive nothing inadequate or
profuse, I still ruminate over the need for change. Seemingly, all things must either
end or dwell, but nay, I wish a transformation. I do not aspire to move beyond the
trifling-- vanquish that thought-- but merely desire to drift with a differing
wind.
The complexity of the scheme has me in a stew. I began as a
blog. I started not at the beginning, not at the end, nor even in the middle,
but on a tangent that had nothing to do with any goal, nor of course, audience
in mind. If I have not recounted this previously, I admit the truth of it now. The
fact that I know not of what I have written is a telling story indeed. Were I
to plot out a proper book, I would hardly misplace the thread of device I had
begun with.
There is nothing to be said for it but to trash the whole design.
Sir, or madam, I apologize for the time you have spent in simple ignorance of
my circumstances up till now. Nay, I grovel at your feet to have you continue
the text, be you here only upon an assumption. I have designs upon the
architecture of this product of modern communication and I devise to persist.
My beginnings as a purveyor of the written word were as
humble as the pencil given me was not. It was a grand hulk of an object,
rounded with thick lead and no eraser. Forbidden, as I was, to change my mind,
devoid of editing and rewrites, I spent long hours merely copying the words
that were penned by another, form over substance. The writing pads were of
tremendous size. Reproduction was the game. I have yet the feeling that my
instructor was of the habit of not using her own words even upon her own blackboard,
but of using, pro forma, the words of another. Could anyone ask a treasure of
me now in full knowledge of my outset with the deuce of a pencil while my own voice
was stifled? Training for a medieval monk could not have been more effectively
fashioned. Damn you Miss Warren for your simplistic drivel of bike, tike, and
dike.
Now I may anger a bit quickly when I think of my beginnings
though at the time I believed the days not mournful. My whole life had been a
series of corrections, yes—and if I forged a unique method, it was most often
not the way blueprinted for me. Still, ignorance of the possible was hardly the
worst thing humanity had for its endurance tests. Remaining properly unweeded
was a much better existence than the alternative. I was, after all, happy and
good humored, with a huge pencil in my hands. [1]
I must endure this moment as I have endured any other and must
redouble my effort to please you dear reader. I lay before thee my bare neck.
Do with it as you will.
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